Reviewed by Carol Hoyer, PhD, for Reader Views (02/10)
Young Ayla is a child, without love or parental contact, who lives with her grandmother. Her mother lives nearby with her current boyfriend and has no use for Ayla. Living with her grandmother is all she knows, until one day her mother decides she will bring her to live with her. Ayla doesn’t want to go and finds that even at a young age her mother doesn’t care what happens to her. During the year she lives with her mother in a home that is chaotic, full of substance abuse and physical/emotional abuse. Later as she gets a bit older, she is sexually abused by a family member and is afraid to tell anyone.
In her mid-teens, Ayla decided she couldn’t take the abuse from her mother and going back and forth to her grandmother’s home, so she decided to leave. After sneaking out of the house, she finds herself on the interstate trying to hitch a ride and this is where her life of hell begins. As each truck driver picks her up, she finds their motto is “I’ll give you a ride and food, and you give me sex.” Sometimes these men were very gentle and other times they were abusive. Once they got what they wanted, they told her to find other rides. Regardless that she didn’t like what was happening she began to get smart and learn to like having numerous sexual encounters. After living in dirty motels and having her clothes and purse stolen Ayla returns to her grandmother’s house only to find that she has changed. She is an adult in a child’s body.
This is a true story of choices we make when we are desperate and unloved. It’s a story of trying to be free and be the person we were meant to be. The author did an excellent job of describing the inner thinking of Ayla and her life and choices. As with many children like Ayla, you will feel sorry for her and wonder why someone didn’t intervene to help her. It is impossible to not dislike the mother and the men who took advantage of her; and you, like I did, may wonder how often this happens on a daily basis with truck drivers.
I found the story to be fast-paced from the first page. There were some spelling errors, but not enough to distract from the story and its real meaning. While reading “Torn Dreams” by Ivory Rose you will feel Ayla’s passion and pain; you will be put into Ayla’s life and soul.